If I am getting what you seem to be saying:
I suspect that when this happens, there is no bending. More likely an alignment of what's really there and your "will". You being truly present and functioning as a part of the process rather than "doing" something. You are not using the subject and the light, etc. to "take" a picture, or even to "make" one. It is probably out of your hands. You would not be rationally conscious of it, because it is not under the control of your "doing" and "knowing" mind; rather, you are operating under a different rule. In this state, you and the subject are equal, true? In fact, if I have it right, I bet there really isn't the same "you" at all. True? Or am I reading it wrong?
Your fear of it sounding crazy is well founded. I'm sure that some of your readers are probably thinking so, and if they think YOU are crazy, they are sending the men in white coats to get me as you read this. Your experience does not fit the model that we here in Ameriky assume; it is not under the control of the ego, where "I" make things happen. In some eastern traditions, if I am reading you right, this would be considered vastly more conscious than our natural state where we think we make things happen. I am not surprised at all that you see it as if it were bending to your will. We have no language for this, so we have to use the words and syntax that we do have, and it comes out all wrong.
By the way, some of my very best friends, some who even love me, really think I'm over the edge when I talk like this. Don't worry about it. Just don't take them shooting with you. What you are describing is priceless. Take care of it.