The one thing I might ask, is: were you aware of yourself at the same time?
I am not quite sure, to be honest.
I did of course feel very connected to the scene and particularly the bird. I've turned that corner, through the morning mist, so many times before. (Experiencing it so silently and smoothly, in a scull, is something that simply must be experienced) I did want to make a record of a feeling. In that sense, I do think I was aware of my own feelings... and all the technicalia was far in the background- or drawn upon more or less instinctively, I suppose. I don't recall any fuss about technicals.
On the other hand, I cannot help but think of a scene as a perfect painting in a store, a painting that I am attempting to steal by sleight of hand. It is something that I'd like to
own. Is it so wrong?! lol But this feeling would seem to be in opposition with the idea that the scene always was, and always will be, mine. Not something I need to steal or own.
Also, as I mentioned, there was some effort expended to get the shot: leaning over the edge of a bridge beside the loud morning traffic of fishermen, which led to some rush and worry about whether I would be there at
The Moment. So I am not fully convinced that I was "still with myself" as MW prescribed. I suppose that if a person can truly "be still" and let influences fall silent, then the right moment
will present itself, and the rush of preparing the frame might be replaced with a relaxed confidence that The Moment
will be experienced, even if not "captured."
Perhaps what I need to learn is to be "still with myself" at the enlarger and accept what I did. :rolleyes: As opposed to wondering how 5x7 fp4+ would have benefited the scene... or whether a blue filter might have brought the mist out a bit more... or whether some masterful feat of dodging and burning might make the sun's rays enter at a shallower angle and touch the bird more obviously... or, or, or...
P.S. I suppose the fishermen impatiently awaiting my departure were blind to the scene- they had other pursuits, and had seen this scene so many times... I wonder if they'd think it completely ordinary and mundane.