I've been left pretty speechless by where everyone has taken this thread. So many excellent, excellent contributions. At times I have had to fight back tears... the good kind. And not simply because people have been so kind. It has been like lifting the veil off the big Elephant in the room. I get the feeling we have all been in need of cutting ourselves some slack. I have had some of the most thoughtful and heartfelt PM's throughout this as well. One that pretty much reduced me to a blubbering idiot. (thanks a lot Matt!)
Many of us have given more of ourselves to the chase of this crazy carrot than anything else in our lives. We've sacrificed financial security, personal relationships... it has in many ways guided our lives. It is of utmost importance not because it is what we do or because it is how some of us make our living, but because it is what we have to do. I don't know about others, but I am lost without it. Like I said to Matt, sometimes being so close to something, you lose perspective. Reading other's can help. In this case a great deal. It's good to know you're not floating alone out there in the big sea.
I didn't start this thread to be about me, only to draw from my experience and make it about all of us. But, I would be remiss in not acknowledging the extremely kind sentiments that have come my way here and in PM's. I had no idea such things could hit the emotional chord they have. I'm also very happy with the "starfleet" (as my wife would say) attitude everyone has taken. Such a nice, calm thread. Many of us are our own, worst enemies and there is no point to making more.
Best to everyone,
Bill
Many of us have given more of ourselves to the chase of this crazy carrot than anything else in our lives. We've sacrificed financial security, personal relationships... it has in many ways guided our lives. It is of utmost importance not because it is what we do or because it is how some of us make our living, but because it is what we have to do. I don't know about others, but I am lost without it. Like I said to Matt, sometimes being so close to something, you lose perspective. Reading other's can help. In this case a great deal. It's good to know you're not floating alone out there in the big sea.
I didn't start this thread to be about me, only to draw from my experience and make it about all of us. But, I would be remiss in not acknowledging the extremely kind sentiments that have come my way here and in PM's. I had no idea such things could hit the emotional chord they have. I'm also very happy with the "starfleet" (as my wife would say) attitude everyone has taken. Such a nice, calm thread. Many of us are our own, worst enemies and there is no point to making more.
Best to everyone,
Bill