I know the feeling. In my early years of photography, I was too afraid to develop my own film (too much could go wrong). Now, I wouldn't trust anyone to develop my film; I must do it myself.
I developed my own film for a very long time, 60 years +, but color has gotten so expensive that on a fixed income for the few rolls I shoot every year I use a color lab. For the part for color I use on digital.
