That Silence of Seeing, by Minor White ... Two more passages ... then I'll give others here a rest. Personally, I'm going to re-read, and contemplate, until I'm fairly sure that it will become part of my photographic "being":
"Along about the middle of my life I came upon quiet and stillness as a preparation for seeing. Before that I went as seeing negatively, that is criticizing before I even had a chance to know the photograph. In that turbulent way I required a certain taste by devouring, gallery hopping, personal biases, prejudice, lying to myself, and imposing a grid of assumptions instead of waiting until a photograph, or subject about to be photographed, spoke to me.
Half of all this rancorous activity was useful; to this day I am not sure which half. Since I assumed that a measurement for excellence was required I had to go through all the uproar to devise a yardstick. The building part of it was useful. The error was in unconsciously coming to believe (that) the measurement, which I accidentally called "Spirit" was an absolute, or close to that. At the same time something like seeing was deflating my confidence, and making me think that I did not know one iota of what Spirit meant.
Then I discovered how to be quiet with myself before photographing anything. Seeing in stillness stripped me of all baggage. I began to find such deeper experiencing as left no need to criticize. When I neglected to judge, vision was richer. Thus for several years I sought experiences at the expense of criticism."
That "grid of assumptions" ... that has to be one of the most intensely debilitating influences in all of photography. It might be a good idea to devote some of my energy in an attempt to eliminate it.
"We could further elaborate on the qualities of the Critic. He would be familiar with his personal foibles. He would be able to discriminate his opinions from his knowledge, and prefer "considered judgements" to ego trips. He would have a breadth of knowledge of camera work to compare my photographs with others like it. If I could become so aware of myself, my hangups, and impartialities that I could commit myself objectively to isolate nourishing photographic contributions to potential viewers, or to the totality of camera work, I might try to perform the critic's task. I, however do not hanker to recognize my deficiencies. I want to remain a subjective photographer. To do that I must defend and cultivate my personal idiosyncracies, enlarge my ego to the size of a colossal olive. I would rather leave objectivity to the critic and damn him for misunderstanding my images and me whenever I feel like blowing off steam."
One comment: Me too.