Insanity Asylum
For me photography is something I do to get a break from reality. I'll admit that I absolutely detest processing film. It's a chore, no matter how you twist and turn it.
But doing the actual shooting, looking into the ground glass, composing, directing if with people, metering - taking all the factors into consideration before I release the shutter - that's both fun and meditative. And when I'm at it I forget about the world around me and focus only on making the perfect negative to print.
And here comes the transition of processing film. It's a necessary intermediate step that solidifies the ideas and thoughts I had, so at least it's productive, and a means to an end.
Printing - that's the truly magical part for me, because that's where my ideas are tweaked into making the best representation of my original idea as possible. It's not until the print is dry, flat, mounted, set in an overmat, and preferably framed that I feel like it's a complete accomplishment. I rotate many mounted and overmated photographs in my frames, and dream that perhaps one day they'll hang in a gallery, museum, or someone's home for others to enjoy. I'd like to think that my images could have a positive impact on somebody's life. I know this is the case for a couple of people that have purchase my prints, and that gives me a huge kick.
But seeing a print that I'm truly happy with, where the printing is just right, all of the tonal values are as I like them to be, the tone and color from toning suits the subject matter, and the final presentation is before me - that makes me happy.
During the process, attempting to focus and make one single thing perfect - that's the 'asylum' part of it. It helps me relax from the rat race of every day life. It helps me stay sane. I hope to God that I never have to become a digital photographer, because it doesn't give me any of the pleasures above.