All this, plus the immediate availability of Minor White's Rites and Passages has drawn me to consider one question about my photography ... WHY?
I do know that it is an important part of me: that doing photography feels a lot better than not doing photography... but Why?
I've taken it upon myself to write an essay of that motivation. It is definitely one of the most difficult tasks that i've ever tried in my life. I have absolutely NO assurance that I will succeed; and it may well be "better" if I do not.
-Yet the very act of internal verbalization and the physical activity of recording those thoughts on paper (see Carlos Castenada) , I am certain, will be of particular value.
This is not for an "Artist's Statement) ... I've written that I would rather have the work speak for itself ... although a brief description -- poem? may accompany specific works when I deem their presence to be of value in enhancing the perception of the work. It will be an introspective tool. It may be that no one else will ever read it .. I don't know -- it will, undoubtedly reveal a great deal about my "innards"... to me - or whoever. I'll decide on the level of privacy I wish to keep after I complete the essay - or as with a lot of my work ... simply decide that it is time to stop and move on.
Rites and Passages has - is having a significant effect on my consciousness -- this is interesting:
"All that has to be said, but it must also be said that only a secular intellectual could think that it was particularly important. White's experience told him that intelligence does not necessarily involve learning, that in fact learning, because it can be accomplished with only the head, and because it is so easily confused with understanding, may often be treacherous. Wisdom to him involved the whole being --- head, heart and senses --- not just a part: enlightenment could come through boot-blacking as well as it could through biophysics."
Hmmm. Lots more to go... and lots more to come.