Hmmm, Terry, I first must apologize for considering you as a troll.
But you came off pretty harshly as we don't really know each other
and one would mistake your accusation for trolling as something more
serious than it was, which I know now was light hearted.
It is very hard to understand a person through a forum and that includes both my perception and yours, even if you did go through all my 3000 and so messages. But, I thank the gods for not being two dimensional, although since I am no character in a show, that also is my curse. I thank you for complimenting on my portfolio and what you perceive as passion and I understand now how you may have been thinking that this is all just a game.
I really don't need someone to kick my butt so I can get out and make some photographs. Nor am I pulling anyone's legs.
In my short and shallow life, I have understood that people, the fellow human beings that surround you and those special ones you happen to meet, have a really important effect on ones personality and life directly and indirectly. I have been fortunate to meet some truly admirable human beings and that has been my present by the gods to me in this life. As such, I have been transformed by each and every one, both positively, but also negatively. Learned to try to brush away bad influences and experiences, I devoted my strength to growing by myself but also letting those good people assist me in learning about the world and myself. From my father and Greek friends, to my Turkish, Brazilian, Pakistani, Japanese, American and friends of other nationalities that really made their presence important.
And so, to make it short, I consider every meeting with another human being to be important, that is one of the reasons I took upon photography and focusing on people and their environments.
Also, that is the reason I am in this forum, that is the reason I write, that is the reason I come off passionately, that is the reason for opening this thread.
I feel somewhat confused and stuck. And I know there are great minds out there and some have been my friends, even if we never met IRL. So, I asked for a bit of help.
I asked for a teacher, because I wanted more than Microwave Dinner advice and photo critique, I wanted them to really help me with my artistic direction.
I think I have succeeded so far in finding those people, who turned out to be people I could have asked privately all along, but all is well.