This is a still life I took a month or so ago, I was testing HP5+ to see how it looked shot at EI 800 but developed as normal. (Something that I do/did with Neopan400 that just gave me the best results for my liking). Anyway it came out beautifully. It's a scan of the negative with very little done to it (except for some severe cropping, the Yashica44LM doesn't get close enough for my liking unfortunately.
The title comes from my mood I guess, kind of solemn, my Aunt just died and I'm headed to Maryland/Pennsylvania/Delaware (where they meet) for the funeral Thursday, and seeing these dead figs, reminds me of death, and how still it all is, and how still my life seems to be at this moment as events unfold. I'm also a little bummed out, lots of talk of printing and how it doesn't work with any of the ideas I've ever had about it, and how essentially all my images are useless in the darkroom (according to some) just makes me feel like I shouldn't bother, that I'm a terrible photographer and I should just give up, wither away, and die... (don't worry I'm not suicidal or anything, I just mean within the realm of photography). I dunno, hopefully this shall pass, but, I just ... I've lost all my motivation for shooting and all my joy has gone flat, why bother shooting if it's worthless...
